Session-107

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  1. Cheffy

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    “Good afternoon Natalie, how have you been since last weeks session?”

    There’s an exasperated groan. “I told you not to call me that Doc.”

    “You know why I have to.”

    “Yeah yeah, little shit, I’ve been… okay, I guess. Shit still sucks, but hey I’m planning on a big payday with Birdbrain and Blondy, so that’s that- and before you fucking ask, yeah, I’m still off the drugs.”

    “That makes me happy to hear, that makes… four months now?”

    “Close to that yeah, still sucks ass but it isn’t as bad as when I was going through the withdrawals so I’ve got that shit at least.”

    “Mmhm, and you haven’t been drinking either?”

    There’s several seconds of silence, before they sigh.

    “Natalie, you were doing so well, it’s been two years and-”

    They interrupt, sounding… tired. “I know, I know Doc it’s… Look, it wasn’t… it wasn’t the usual reasons okay? My… fucking suicidal roommate died, all the fucking shit I tried to stop them and they still fucking found a way to do it. Shit fucking hurt, okay? Get off my ass.”

    Silence again, then the sound of leather creaking. “...I’m sorry, I didn’t know.”

    “...It’s fine, I’m doing fine. Shit like this has been happening for years and since One. It’ll blow over and I’ll forget about them in a few months.”

    “We both know that’s a lie, do you want to talk about it?”

    “...Am I allowed to say no?”

    “Always Natalie, I’m not forcing you to talk to me, it’s your choice remember?”

    Another groan. “...Fine, okay. Yeah, I fucking do want to talk. The past year has been fucking hell. The shit that let me, you know, feel isn’t cutting it anymore, I got off my fucking drugs because that bitch paid me to, and the BEST FUCKING PART, is that some ASSHOLES made me gave a shit about them, and then they went off and FUCKING DIED like the idiots they are. The cuck, the idiotic shifter bitch, and then birdbrain. Thank fucking god that the cuck divorced that bitch, even if she’s one of my bitches-”

    She’s suddenly cut off by the other person. “-Friends, Natalie. Your friends, call them what they are please.”

    Can I even fucking call them that? The only one I think that fucking counts me as a goddamn friend is Aella, I treat everyone else like shit and you know it. Can’t fucking help myself half the time and it just… comes out, I start acting like Three again. Second I see some shit I just… go off, mood flips in an instant, and then all the shit starts to happen, I start acting how I used to, doing things like that shit, being the horrible piece of shit I know I am, and I can’t stop.”

    “I’ve offered to prescribe you-”

    I know what you’ve fucking offered, and the answer is still no. This isn’t shit that drugs can fix, not when it’s this fucking deep and-”

    She suddenly cuts herself off, going silent for a few seconds, before sighing.

    “...We’re done for today. I’ll see you next week.”


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