I'm not making this for attention. I'm making this because I want to know how certain people perceive me. I am known for being 'negative' and 'abrasive' and I believe that's result of lack of social experience on my part and differences in culture. Some obvious things are simply difficult for me. This will perhaps procure me some data that is invaluable to the development of my social abilities. Type what you think about me and/or my characters. Negative criticism if welcome (I won't report you to staff buddy) and doesn't need to be constructive. Positive criticism is alright IF it's constructive. Feel free to ask me questions. (if I don't answer then I probably have you blocked and cannot see your post) Feel free to contact me privately.
I like you despite the fact that you don't seem to enjoy many things and seem adamant on appearing deadpan in all our interractions. You give off the general vibe that you don't really care that much about GC or the Playerbase even if i'm sure you do at least some people. I wish you seemed to be having as much fun as you were having or something
You were most certainly 'negative' and 'abrasive' before your ban, and while it's too soon to make any judgements about your behavior post-ban you still seem rather insistent on letting everyone know how much you dislike the things they like. It's important to note that disliking popular things and being contrarian isn't inherently a bad thing, it just becomes incredibly grating when you butt into a conversation that didn't involve you just to say how much you don't like the topic people are discussing. There is a time and place for criticism, and it is not when people passionate about a subject are having fun talking about it. You were also pretty nasty to some people pre-ban and vehemently refused on apologizing, despite that being all it took to be unbanned (before the Gestapo incident). You aren't anywhere close to being one of the most toxic people to ever grace our server during its run, you haven't doxxed anyone or done anything actually illegal, but the constant negativity builds up and is incredibly frustrating to have to deal with, which is why certain people can be rude or snippy when dealing with you. I don't know anything about your characters because, when I was still getting on server, you refused to RP and would instead sit silently on a hub no one was at and not acknowledge any attempts to speak to Misery (at least, my attempts), leading people to believe you were always OOC. Maybe that's different now, I can see that you're actually on a hub with people on it at the moment, but I suppose I won't be able to find out for sure until I start getting on the server again. I'd DM you all of this to not air dirty laundry publicly, but you still have me blocked after one of the handful of incidents when everyone in the Discord got tired of your behavior and grouped up to call you out. Hopefully that doesn't happen any more. (If someone could tell them to unblock me so they see this, that'd be neat.)
Your entire presence on GC OOC goes in constant cycles; you come back one day suddenly, you act well-behaved and perfectly likeable for a little while, you slowly begin to act up and get on peoples nerves over a few weeks or months, then it finally comes to a head, and you either get temporarily banned for your behavior or get frustrated and leave on your own. After a while, the whole thing repeats. And it's kept repeating again and again and again within recent memory. It's thus impossible to accurately gauge your behavior every time you come back, including now, because any observations I could make about how much better you're acting compared to last time are tainted by the suspicion that you're just gonna act up again eventually, like you have every time so far without fail. You don't seem to understand that nearly every reason that either gets you banned from or bullied out of GC repeatedly is of your own doing, with you instead blaming it on the people around you. Especially if those people are staff, who you always eventually bring up some shit with during your on-and-off cycles here before you leave again. That you literally have "staff not allowed!!!" in the title of this very topic, like that's supposed to stop any member of staff from commenting on, locking or deleting it, exemplifies this, like you're constantly afraid the entire team is out to get you for no reason or something along those lines. I can't really speak for them, but from what I know, their thoughts are more or less the same as all the other members here; most wishing you'd finally get your act together so you can stick around, because you are great company when you're behaving yourself, they're rightfully suspicious of you whenever you show up again due to your track record, and ready to act in case they have to do something about you. Again. As incredibly barbed as I've been towards you in the past, I actually don't mind having you around when you behave yourself. At your core, I think you're a good and well-meaning person whose mindset and behavior just tends to clash with other members, creating friction unintentionally. I appreciate your creativity here on GC, you're nice to have in a conversation when your only contribution isn't "nuh uh that sucks/that's bad" repeatedly, I usually like your sense of humor, and meeting Misery ICly with one of my characters has always been on my to-do list since some of my earliest days here. Plus, as of recently, you've actually been actively getting on the server, which is a very good thing of everyone to do, not just you. Really, I and many others only ask you to go away as much as we do because just asking you to change your ways never seems to work, or at least not for long, but most people here want you to so you can stick around and have fun just like everyone else, with everyone else. Like people above me have said, you aren't, like, the scourge of GC or anything even close to that, it's just that the excessive negativity you bring to the table (unintentionally, even, from what I can tell) tends to make people not want to be around you or spend time with you. There's more to it than this, but if I had to give you any advice, it'd be to start trying to work on getting over that much if you want people to treat you better.
Please read my post. I mentioned that if you want to give me any praise, make it constructive. The thread was also directed to people who have been here for a while and know me.
